(2026)

tet is coming. and i love my girlfriend more than ever.
and i'm glad that i'm making progress, after those pesky 4 years that i've got through. it felt, it truly felt like hell. my enemies are getting tamer. that's fine i have put it as my lowest priority since i've had my girlfriend, the co-highest one along with my educations and career (they go hand-in-hand).
and uh i realised the reason i'm bad, because i don't really have time for anything and so i'm just uncultured... or maybe i was just too ignorant or smth or i only focused on beating phantom forces which i ended up quitting ever since the devs were exposed as pedophiles. man i really hope they didn't do that, i could've enjoyed it much longer fucking diddybluds.
anyways i feel liek this year is going to be difficult, but i have my girlfriend. which is great, we can do this tgt. what a sweetheart she is. love her so much.
i hope i can make friends and retain them w/o accidentally abandoning. wishing that they are as busy as me........... but different people have different goals and i can't do shit.
man.. i love my girlfriend.

i have never felt this low since forever.
i might be burnt out or something, but i really feel that my emotions and feelings worsening over time.
new low. academics low. morale low. everything low
everything on my body feels weird and stuffy, i keep having allergies, eczemas, autoimmune diseases that never ends.
i wish i could tell this to my girlfriend, but she would hate to hear them because everybody has bad days too not just me., but it has been for weeks to me now, but i feel weirdly numb.
for now, i'll let it simmer until tonight. i just felt so deadlocked so i went up here to vent a bit.
love, dan