23/05/2023:
it's getting heavier, i don't know why. had a big fight with my parents yesterday. one more week and it's going to be my last year as an 8th grader. hopefully everyone will stop hating on me for being such a burden.
why would my best friends do that? i'm not sure. i value them but i think they don't want me alive.
27/05/2023:
mom finally apologised for being aggressive. dad hasn't said anything yet. but she did say that my family is going to singapore in around late june-early july. should be fun since i will have the chance to visit my dream university: National University of Singapore - School of Computing. i have waited so long for this trip haha.
04/07/2023:
american independence day. haha. cool. anyways good talking with you ltk, see you tmr bro. you are the only friend i truly have.
anyways ltk, you better be playing genshin impact. imma join you whenever my ps4 is fixed. cya s00n
20/07/2023:
singapore. here i come.
22/07/2023:
so damn beautiful.
30/08/2023:
back to school. 9th grader now,,, hairstyle is ssssssshitty as fuck. oh my fucking god. i am NOT deserving of this. uggggggh
03/09/2023:
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why am i even doing it. it's not justified.
29/09/2023:
daniel. stop being a little prick. you know who you are. stop being a burden. stop being caring.
but caring is my trait
shut the fuck up. you don't even know who you are.
i'm sorry, i'm probably just dissociated. unattached. or something else. please anchor me.
no. you did what you had done. reap the consequences.
probably 7/10 or 8/10/2023. the numbers were..scribbled
teacher's been pressuring me to study harder. i told her my dream is to enroll in either emc chu van an or maybe english/russian major class flss. she said i should try to enroll in chuyen su pham too because high schools operated by universities have better deals and shits (can't transcript so had to write "shits") than those which are operated by the dept. she also said i should try hsgs since i'm kinda good at maths.
to be honest, i don't give a fuck about any of those elite high schools. hanoi-amsterdam is too far for my reach. just chu van an please and it will be over for me. then my suffering is over. i just want to be a teenager when i'm supposed to be one.
actually radiohead is kinda good these days. and fuck the ps4 is beyond repair. i'm sorry ltk.
24/10/2023:
again and again and again
do it again.
do it again.
25/12/2023:
met some 8a1 kiddos who's trying to make a discord server. for the whole school. i mean wow ok when i was in 6th grade i only persuaded my class to make one and everybody dumped that idea in some invisible mind dumpster. anyways there was a girl, she's queer or somewhat. to be honest i don't know. but she is pretty good at english like me lol. cool.
i think we're going to be good friends. cool. very cool.